But Jesus has found me.
I can no longer call myself an atheist. You see, I’ve given Jesus another try – and I’ve felt his power in my life once again.
It doesn’t matter how much I argue that the science doesn’t make sense. It doesn’t matter how much I argue that the Bible contradicts itself. It doesn’t matter how much I argue that history doesn’t bear out the stories of the New Testament. It does not matter how much I argue that God must be immoral because he allows “bad” things to happen. The only thing I know is this: Jesus Christ is real, and his salvific power has once again snared me in its grasp.
You see, friends, I know I’m a sinner. I know that I’ve violated the irrepressible will of God, and that I deserve the suffering and torture that awaits me upon my death. I know that my very nature is a slap in God’s face, and that nothing I do in this life could possibly make up for the insult I’ve made Him endure.
And I know that my only possible salvation from this spiritually decrepit state is to prostrate myself before the throne of Jesus Christ, to be washed in the blood of the Lamb, and to recognize that I am a pitiful whelp in dire need of His saving grace.
O we like sheep have turned every one to his own way. I turned away from the ways of the Lord to the ways that I considered ‘right’, without noting for an instant that the Lord is the true source of right and wrong, and that without him, no knowledge of right and wrong is possible. I saw myself as a new Adam, seeking to spurn God’s law and to eat the fruit of the tree of the knowledge of good and evil.
I was arrogant, boastful, prideful, and without shame. I have no excuse, and deserve the harshest penalty possible under God’s perfect law.
And yet, that sinless savior, Jesus Christ, died that I might live more fully and more perfectly, without fear for the destruction of my soul. The Word was made flesh, and became sin for us, that we might escape that punishment that was rightfully ours.
Brothers and sisters, I beg you! Give up your foolish pride. Moderate your boastful spirit with a spirit of penitence. Admit your sinful nature and debase yourself before your God, that you might come into a closer walk with Him. Repent, for the kingdom of the Lord is at hand!